Breaking shit down.

I was reading the comments for the Gregory and the Hawk 'A Wish' lyrics on songmeanings.com, and some of the people are so stupid (or maybe I am just judgemental because I think I'm right about everything.) But I would like to talk about what I think the meaning of the lyrics are. Most of them are pretty forward, I believe, but some people need explanation. Also, how I relate to some of these lyrics, and have had experience in these areas.


I wish to feel smaller under your sheets.
I believe this is self explanatory. I want to feel smaller, skinnier, not so big, under your sheets. Don't all girls feel like that?

I wish for the whole truth every time you speak.
He probably sticks to the short answers. My ex used to do this. "Where were you at after work?" "A friends house / Robbie's house / Buying weed." But didn't mention that another girl was there, or that he went over to the other girls house after that.

I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me, while I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep...
Self explanatory. He obviously doesn't care that much. He shows up, has sex, smokes cigarettes, goes to sleep.

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after
isn't enough
The third line explains the second. She told him how she feels about him, and he 'stuck it in his pocket' or acknowledged it, but disregarded it, ignored it, didn't really have a response.

and I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins.
I could be wrong, but I think it's obvious that this line talks about her cutting herself. This happens to lots of girls in their teen years. I dealt with it, along with a lot of my really close friends. Shit, I'm 21 years old and this happened to me just last month.

And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away.
He's not going to stay. He's going to leave and break her heart. Whether or not he leaves, her heart is already breaking and it's going to be completely broken when she stops being in denial about him being an asshole. Going through something like this (being cheated on, not cared for, abused, etc.) makes it a lot harder to give your heart to the next person. It's hard to give your heart to someone if the least person's heart tore yours away.

And I wish to feel smaller under your hands,
though you seem satisfied as you slip mine
down your pants.
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While you lift up my shirt after asking politely.

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
Cuz it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy.
Self explanatory... She can try her best, pretend to be perfect, cater to him, etc, but it's her (an ex or another girl) he'll always love. She'll always envy her for having her man's love.

I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up.
This one, I'm not sure about. I believe she is either talking about ending the relationship or ending her life. Possibly she's already having dreams about him that keep her up, and she thinks that ending the relationship would stop the dreams. Or ending her life (since I already think she's cutting herself) so that she won't have to worry about having any dreams anymore at all, considering the fact that ending the relationship doesn't always mean the dreams go away.

But I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins.
And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away.

And it's hard to find
What I want
When it's buried beneath the biggest rock.
I could pay lots of money
To help lift it with machines
But I'm not sure you'd cooperate.
Not sure you'd come clean.
It seems like what she wants is his love, and the biggest rock is a huge obstacle, probably the other girl. She could 'pay lots of money' or put a lot of effort into proving that there is another girl, but she's not sure if he'd cooperate or come clean. I totally understand this. I had a ridiculous amount of proof that my ex-boyfriend was cheating on me, and stll to this day (two years later) he denies it. I 'lifted the biggest rock' but he still wouldn't cooperate or come clean.


And I wish to feel smaller
under your sheets.
I wish for the whole truth
every time you speak.
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep.

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
and I swear I'm going to cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.

Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins.
And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away.

Is gonna tear mine away.

dreaming of you.

I've been dreaming of you. These dreams are so real that I'm devastated when I wake up. I miss the comfort of knowing you were always there for me. I miss the comfort of our platonic relationship; close and intimate and never more. I miss that you loved all the songs I loved, and loved to sing them with me. I miss your nonsensical conversations that made me feel closer to God. It's a reservation to think that one day we'll ever be able to be close like that again and feel the euphoria of our neurotransmitters receiving mass amounts of dopamine. But the one thing I miss most about the life I had before was you. I once thought God sent you to me; once the devil, and I'm still not sure. But I know that to invite you back into my life would mean giving up everything I've gained. Sometimes I wonder if it would be worth it, knowing that it wouldn't.