Hmm.

So here I am, 6 days before I am supposed to move back in with my mother, already moved some things here, and my mother tells me she wants me to move into the condo. Rent free. Just have to pay utilities. I guess I would be in the same situation either way. Except if I was to stay with my Mom, I wouldn't be paying utilities, and I wouldn't really be buying food. I just found this out a few hours ago, so it is still boggling my mind. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. I guess I'm going to move in, try to get a roommate so that I can pay for some things, and probably try to get a job with Nate at comcast. If that doesn't work out I will try to get a job closer to the condo. Probably go to school. It just feels like I never get a break. This is one of the many reasons why I feel the way I feel about a lot of things. Families are so important. Because it's how you raise your children and what you can provide for them that depends on their future. I did not get the worst raising in the world, but God knows I didn't have the best either. I've worked with what I was given but I feel like I'm just at sea level. I'm not in massive debt or dead or anywhere below sea level, but I'm also not up high above, in major success. I'm always just barely making it, my bank account constantly at just barely not being overdrawn. I am just going to have to do this. I don't know what exactly it is I'm supposed to do yet. But I'm just going to keep PUSHing. (Pray Until Something Happens.) I could go on and on. I have so much more to say. But I'm so tired.

Inspiration.

What keeps me pulling through is that I know the word is true.
What keeps me going everyday is that I know in the end it will all be okay.
What gives me inspiration is to know that I ain't gave in.
What keeps me strong is that I keep holding on.
What keeps me alive is that the time keeps on ticking and I'm still here breathing and the blood in my veins is still there and most of all the fact that you still care.


I found out today about my new church when I move, which is brand new. It's the Silverdale 5th ward, and yes, it's a YSA (Youth Single Adults) which will be the first YSA I've attended. I also found out that the name of the community college out there isn't Cascadia, it's Olympic. And they actually do not provide agriculture. But Vincennes University is in Silverdale (although I think it might be mostly online) and they offer a 2year program in agriculture, and a transfer to Purdue or Pursue (I think) University, which I also think is mostly online, if I want to further my agriculture education. So I'm pretty excited to move! Let's see, it's August 18th so I only have... 13 more days until I move!!!